Roller Coaster

I think my dislike of roller coasters stems from the fact that I dislike rapid change, I like to have options open and know what's coming around the next corner, not all of a sudden "No way, I'm not going down that...Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh! Aghhh!!!!!!" And I have started to draw the parallel to the roller coasters at a theme park to what has been going on the past couple months of my life. There have been so many ups and downs, quick turns, and times of being flipped upside down, that I can't even begin to put into words what it's been like. I approached this past summer with a plan, a plan that I would go to graduate school, stay in ABQ, and get a job, and go about my happy little life. As the summer drew on, it was like more and more God was telling me "ummm... not so fast. Those are your plans for your life, not Mine". That is how I've come to take comfort in Isaiah 55:8-9 "'For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.'" I've now gone from planning on submitting my application to grad school to filling out an application to be a full-time missionary (which I never thought would happen in my life). There are numerous other "rides" that I am on right now, so I can't necessarily write about them, but in my head I have so many "what-ifs" and "huhs?" that I am just so glad that God is in control and I'm not. For a person who is an impatient control freak, this has been especially difficult, but I do know that through this time, God is breaking me and molding me all the more. As I'm writing this blog, my iTunes is rocking "Empty Me" by Jeremy Camp and the line "Holy Fire burn away my desire for anything that is not of You but is of Me" has pretty much become my prayer during this "interresting" time of my life.